We went to church with Meemaw & Peepaw this morning...Essie got to spend her first day in the nursery...she was the ONLY baby there and did fantastic from what I hear.
Sunday, February 28, 2010
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Ahhh...tonight was Parent-Teacher Conferences so it was a 12 hour workday for me! The conferences were from 2-8 so I'm exhausted...it's so tiring to go from parent to parent and talk for like 6 hours straight (after teaching ALL day). But I do LOVE PT conferences...I love catching up with the parents-and this year was almost like a party-I've never laughed so hard! I have been lucky to have been given such great kids this year with great parents! And to top it off-my secret pal at work surprised me with this platter of cookies AND a diet dr. pepper! Just made my night! AND to top that off my hubs brought me a sonic diet coke and Essie by to see me! I was super bummed since she'd be in bed by the time I got home! I thought it was sweet but I didnt' want her to leave! AND to top that off...the house was clean when I got home. So nice!
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Monday, February 22, 2010
So...today was Travis' first day of "unemployment". He took me and Essie to work/daycare because Mrs. Deena had a dr appointment and had to be picked up early. So this afternoon they got to come and pick me up...I loved having my 2 favorite peeps come to get me! She LOVED the kids and was smiling/flirting with them all. Everyone kept commenting on how long she is...I noticed it today too...she looks like she's gotten so tall!
And it's crazy how much better at crawling lately she's gotten! She's EVERYWHERE! I stepped out of the room and within seconds she was across the room going after a dog toy!
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Well today I hoped to wake up and yesterday be all a dream....but today's it's a whole new world for us. A world of uncertainty...a world of unknown....a world of what ifs. Yesterday we woke up and went about our business as we always have...today it all felt strange. It feels foreign and icky. We've become accustomed to our comfortable lifestyle. And now I have to second guess all we do...second guess what feels natural to me. Today I called to cancel our "romantic weekend away" that we were planning for next weekend. I cancelled my hair appointment. I found myself questioning what items we really, really, really couldn't live without at Walmart today. I hate not knowing what's headed our way...I feel so unprepared. I (if you've not already caught one) am a PLANNER by nature...I plan things way ahead of time. I didn't plan for this...and I can no longer plan for our future at the moment and it sucks.
We've been through hard times before. When we first got married I had just graduated and yet to get a "real" teaching job so I was subsitute teaching & Travis was working at KMart while he finished college. We had very little...in fact we went without heat that entire winter because we couldn't afford the heating bill...we lived huddled near a small space heater and under an lime green electric blanket. But we were happy. We knew no other life and we were in newlywed bliss.
But that was years ago and I don't know how to live that life right now. I know we will get through...I know God will provide but it sucks. I am bitter and angry and emotional and regretful that we didn't plan for this earlier.
But then again I am thankful for what we do have...we have a beautiful daughter who is oblivious to this whole scenario and makes me laugh even when I want to cry. We have a house (at least for now, haha). I have a job. We have a wonderful support system who are lifting us up in prayer and giving us words of encouragement...and that includes all you bloggers who have left us some absolutley beautiful comments...I cannot express what those mean to us. We have each other to lean on. And we have a God who will provide for us. We will get through. (I just have to keep repeating that over and over to myself).